every beat of my heart

Saturday, June 24, 2006

sick on thurs. went to see doc. have medicine and slept for the whole day. went down to meet classmates they all at whitesand on fri. we are having a class bbq. was not supposed to go for the bbq. but i went even though my mother was not happy about it. fever gone already, so i think it will be alright. went cycling and i din fall down. because gaode was not around. hmm. having fun when cycling. but disappointed when it rains at 7 plus. went to a cafe to hide. they order 2 jar of beer. rain stopped at 9 plus. went back to pit to continue our bbq. went home at 10plus. that's all for fri.

gaode was correct. i'm going for impossible. so i decided to give up. raise up my flag and surrended. that's all i can do.

11:29 PM

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

wake up at 10.15am this morning. bath and went down to sch for CMSY project meeting. arrived sch at ard 12pm and waited for angel and jiaxin to come. me and sharon decided to go design sch to have our lunch while waiting for them. ate pork chop and drink tehbing. chat and chat alot with sharon. then jiaxin came. 3 of us kept on chit-chatting non-stop. real talkative. then angel came and went to discuss about our project thing. roughly get the idea of the project and what we shall find and do. then went to TM and home. found out that actually me and sharon got alot of same thinking and hobbies. everything we said, we keep "hi-5". haa. hmm. she know how to play piano. gonna ask her to teach me how to see 'bean sprout'. hee. hmm. having a runny nose now. sneeze sneeze sneeze and sneeze. haiyo. hmm. got quite a lot of things haven complete yet. plus tomorrow still have to go school take $ from miss chong and going to buy food for the class bbq. *tired* and i'm thinking whether i should work or not. *confused* fan ar. haiz. nitex diary.

It's up to you: Get discouraged or get determined. Get bitter or get better. Focus on liabilities or possibilities. - Ron Kaufman
A loving person sees love all around. An angry person sees reasons to be angry. Your world is a reflection of yourself.

7:28 PM

Monday, June 19, 2006

wake up at 11 plus due to being disturb by someone. -thanks jo. haa. then can't get to sleep after that. so i toss and turn until 12 plus. bath and went over to my grandma hse because there's celebration for father's day. ate alot of food there. noodles, hotdaog, fishball and fried chicken wings. *yummy* watch mummy and auntie play mahjong while eating. meet ivan at bishan mrt station as we agree to go out together as planned. went to orchard. again we are talking crap on the way there. haa. went cine and bought movie tix. we are watching RV at 7.30pm. =) it's 5 plus then, so we decided to go far east because i wanna buy belt. arrived at far east. went to search for belt but to no avail, i found none. but i found a short that i love it at first sight. so i went to try and bought it. it was 6 plus then and we gotta go as we still have to eat. so we went back to cine and ivan ate long john silver. then we went to buy some snack and rush to the cinema. the movie are fantastic. it's funny and touching. both of us laugh until some people turn around and look at us. *shy* hmm. after the movie, we went home. today was FUN. =)

for XF peeps.
hmm. first of all i must apologise for not going to the bbq. SORRY. because the performance ended late and i could not went over. if i reached there, it's already 10 plus. and i only can stay awhile and have to go because i have to catch last bus. i promise i'll meet up with u all other time. hmm. and also not that i love new ones and going to abandon the old ones. i still love u all. i wish that u all don think that i only stick to poly friends and not u all anymore. i really scare u all are thinking this way. things are always popping up and so coincidental. donno how to explain but i only can apologise. hope things can go on smoothly and fine.

I don't know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody. - Bill Cosby
You can please all the people some of the time, and some of the people all the time, but you are responsible to yourself all the time.

2:29 PM

Saturday, June 17, 2006

wake up at 10 plus this morning. wash up and switch on computer. chat with jo they all. know that todae ryan they all are helping sky and yvonne celebrate their birthday. me and jo couldn't make it for the celebration because we are going to watch dramatec perform. had a small arguement with ryan they all. then went orchard to meet pig. feel kinda boring because he was talking abt his stuff throughout the day. it's like he's in his world and i'm in mine. anw, i'm having mood swing also. can't blame him. then jo come and meet us and we head to TP. take cab instead of bus because we waited very long for the bus and we are running late. was thinking quite alot on cab. the performance ended at 9pm. and we drag here and there, 9.30pm then leave sch. was supposed to go down for bbq. but in the end i decided not to go down le. because when i reach there, it will be 10 plus. and i only can stay for awhile as i have to catch last bus. (sorry) den i went home. on the way home, really don feel like going home. it's a FRI and i already told my mummy i'll be home late tonight. so i msg biskot. but he's at home as he's sick. (takecarex jim jim) then i msg jo and sae i wanna meet her go prata shop drink tehbing. [ hmm. jo. not i wanna find biskot first den find u. is because i tot he'll be outside somewhere else ma. den i can go find him and drink. ok. =) ] we ordered 2 egg prata, 2 tehbing and 1 mee goreng. hmm actually should be 3 tehbing la coz i order another cup. then eat eat eat, chat chat chat. i must sae that gals are SENSITIVE. they know wad's going on and they can sense that something is going wrong. whereas guys CANNOT. not that i say every guys are not sensitive but most of the guys are not. hmm. walked to her hse there and take cab home. was feeling kinda of down. arghh. my mood swing really high ar. kk. stop here. nitex diary.

A smile will gain you ten more years of life. - Chinese proverb
And ten more years worth living.

For every minute you are angry you lose sixty seconds of happiness. - Ralph Waldo Emerson
It takes 42 muscles to frown and 17 to smile. Don't work so hard.

9:10 AM

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

hmm. wake up at 10.30am and went to sch for project meeting. suppose to meet tk, stephen and eileen. but in the end i only met tk and stephen. actually we didn't really talk abt project thingy lo. haa. a few minutes time, we already settle the project thingy le. isn't we anyhow? while waiting for stephen, i was using the computer and found out that TP is having a '1 day-Leadership Workshop'. it sounds interesting. but so sad. nobody acc me go. but mayb tk going to acc me go. donno him lehx. see how bahx. i really wanna walk out of my own small circle and go out to the big area which is not within my circle. haiz. hmm. then we went to jupitar cafe for lunch. ate fish & chips. sat there to listen to stephen de story. then we went to cheers because i said i was craving for moo~moo ice cream. arrived at cheers but the moo~moo ice cream finished le. so i bought the jelly~jelly ice cream. hee. hmm. very paiseh lo. the cheers's uncle said they don't have change for 50bucks note but i only had 5obucks note with me. so in the end, tk help me to pay for the ice cream. gonna return tk and stephen $ when i see them. =) then, we go to sit at one of the benches outside one-stop. sat there and chat abt our life and all those things. i told them abt wad i want so on and so fro. after that, backed home. complete my mission statement and found out wad i really wants. gonna work hard !! nitex diary.

i'm lost in the dark~

Do not expect the world to look bright if you habitually wear gray-brown glasses. - Charles Eliot.
This life is a brilliant with colours. Enjoy the full palette all around you.

11:04 PM

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

hmm. have been going to jo's hse to slack for 2 days. *sianx* hmm. i feel that i am childish and naive. haiz. donno why. i just find things aren't working out right. am i thinking too much or what? if that's the case, i could not help it. it's my mind that kept on thinking and i can't control it. hmm. can i have a more simple mind rather than a complicated one? that's all for today. nothing much to write. =

Patience is the key to contentment. - Muhammad
What's the rush?

5:19 AM

Monday, June 12, 2006

I was angered, for i had no shoes. Then I met a man who had no feet. - Chinese Proverb
Be grateful for who you are, where you are, how you are. Lucky you.

7:43 AM

Sunday, June 11, 2006

argghhh. feel terrible now. i'm running fever now. very xin ku ! my back, actually is whole body feel very suan. like muscle ache like tat. oh my god. wake up at 12 plus to watch devil beside you. den eat a packet of beehoon and watch tv until 3 plus. felt very tired so went to slp. who knows when i wake up, already running fever le. so i slp, wake up, slp, wake up til 8 plus. den wake up to eat porridge. but no appetite lo. i'm waiting for the porridge to cool. gonna have abit and eat medicine. haiyo. sianx. nitex diary.

You will soon break the bow if you keep it always stretched. - Plato
Work hard. Rest and relax well. Keep the two in balance.

9:08 PM

Saturday, June 10, 2006

hmm. today wake up at 1 plus in the afternoon. damn pig hor. haa. hmm. have to stay at home because ytd i came home late. so mummy keep nag non-stop. if i today go out again, she sure scold me de lo. so i decide to stay at home and didn't went for ecp. after washing up, i switch on computer and begin to blog. it's been long ages ever since my last update. so i decide to blog abt what's happening on 09/06/06. =) felt hungry, so meet jo go hougang mall to eat 'tomyam ban mian'. *yummy* haa. hmm. den we walk ard in hougang mall to get our stuff. both of us bought alot of things today lo. bleahs. i've bought a notebook, earpiece sponge, cadbury chocolate, chipsmore cookies, ear stud and hair band. haa. that's quite alot of thing huh. found out that mall don have shop that sell the medicine for earhole infection so we went to compass point and jo bought the medicine. then, went to walk ard awhile and back home. hmm. there's alot of thoughts in my mind as i was looking at the photos of the moon and esplanade nightlife and listening to my blog de music. there's a really big gap in between us. i donno how to say but my feelings tell me so. get abit sad now. but don worry. i will be fine. takecarex diary.

Letting go is easy. It's the holding on that hurts. by Paul Buckingham
There comes a time to move on. It's hard to do that if you don't let go.

6:39 AM

pictures of the day.

being snap by someone.

today wake up at 10 plus 11 when jo called me. went to sch just to acc her to eat lunch. lame ritex. =/ hmm. went to watch a play at esplanade theatre. actually it is 2 play. called VANITY VICTORIOUS VIRTUE VANQUISHED and CITY OF THE GODS. in the first place, i thought i would fall asleep. but i din ! because both of the play are damn nice !! oh my god. i just LOVE it. i really envy the confident they had, their voice and expression. the way they express themselves and how confidence they are infront of the audience. how i wish i'm involved in this kind of thing. haiz. i feel that i'm just a frog inside a well. everything seem so strange to me. my eng, love life, studies all sux. i din achieve anything in my life. how could it be? i won wan to live my life forever in a well ! i don wan to be a mountain turtle that always say "huh? what's tat?" when everybody know the thing and only me who donno it. it makes me feel so miserable u know. so i tell myself. i'm gonna JUMP out of this well and gonna achieve something tat can make me proud of. i'm gonna work towards my goal !! it's a MUST !! jiayou jiayou jiayou !!

2:34 AM