wake up 11 plus this morning. ate beehoon while watching tv. went out to buy earpiece because my earpiece spoilt. sianx. totally broke le lo. haiz. at first thought i will be meeting jo but in the end we didn't meet up. so i went to take bus 27 to changi airport and back to sengkang. the mood for today was rather sad. ='( haiz. stone on bus for 1 hour. went rivervale mall to buy tibits. i like to vent out by eating and more. went home, eat eat eat and eat while watching tv. slept from 6 plus til 8 plus. went to buy food for father and myself. hmm. that's all for todae. actually i also donno what i'm thinking eh. controlled myself not to think so much but i also ended up thinking much. don't know what happen to me and my brain. haiz. nitex.
The worst thing a guy can do is make a girl fall for him, when he has no intention of catching her.
10:11 PM
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
wake up 8.30am this morning and go school for lab lesson. discuss some ideas on our IISO model assignment. chit chat with classmates throughout the whole lesson. =P accompany classmates to the coffee shop opposite school to have lunch. watch them eat and drool saliva. haa. i can't eat because i have already meet jiemei family peeps for lunch le. so can't break promise right. hmm. went BUS park and ate chicken rice and drank chrysanthemum tea. had commskills leeson at 2pm. CMSY lecture at 4pm and IISO lecture at 5pm. but, i skip IISO lecture. too boring and i definitely will go to my lala land. so i decided to go home. actually was suppose to meet jo, but suddenly her family got some problem so the meeting was cancelled. went home and slack til now. hmm. don't know why. nowadays i just couldn't focus during lesson. jialat sia. i kept being carried away to my lala land. what happen to me? why i keep thinking of those unimportant things? my determination is not strong enough. haiz. nitex.
Its hard to pretend you love someone when you don't, but its harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do.
Love is like quicksand: The deeper you fall in it, the harder it is to get out.
9:28 PM
Sunday, July 23, 2006
wake up 1pm this afternoon and cook instant noodle for breakfast. eat and slack for the whole day. read about macroeconomics for project. but i didn't touch on the project at all. die. haiz. today got alot of unhappy things !! i feel like venting out but don't know how. it's like my heart going to burst out soon because it has no more space to put those unhappy things. argh. haiz. damn piss off, angry, unhappy, sad, confuse. i don't know what shall i do? i shall not blog about what happen. haiz. suddenly feel sad as i think that the bond is not really there anymore. hmm. i also don't know how to say. forget it. gonna stop here. nitex.
A guy and a girl can be just friends but at one point or another one of them will fall for the other, maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late or maybe, just maybe...forever.
Just because i smile on the outside doesn't mean that i am on the inside.
Love is as simple as a mouse trap, easy to fall into, hard to get out of, and could be deadly.
3:19 AM
Saturday, July 22, 2006
wake up at 9.30am this morning. bath and get ready to go to school for accounting tutorial (which is the tut that i always went crazy). before going out of house, remembered that i have forgot to take the 'tanya's concert tixs' so i went to search my file. and guess what, i can't find the tixs. i have lost the tixs. oh my god. i couldn't find it after searching my book shelf. see how clumsy am i. tixs also can lost. gave up searching for it and went to school. called jo and told her that the concert have to be cancelled. told her the reason and she laugh at me. lolx. basket. reached school and i didn't do my tutorial work. teacher go around to check homework and i told her i didn't do. she mark it down but i don't care. tk they all ask the whole class to be free on 4th of august as they are planning to have a class outing. i already told them i can make it on that day but glen still say that he only trust sharon but not me and the rest of the girls. after hearing this, i can feel fire burning inside me. really very angry eh. please lehx. can stop the pangseh thing not? keep mentioning, don't you feel sianx mehx? oh my god. don't say i petty ok. let u say 1 time, 2 times, i don't mind. but not always and frequently !! i will get mad too ok. you thought i no temper ar? BASKET. *phew* have to cool down. so damn angry sia. haiz. hmm. completed cmsy project while waiting for jo to finish her lesson. met ryan at silicon lab so went to have my lunch with him and denise. while waiting for denise to finish her commskills project, ryan and i went to mensa first. ate hokkien mee and drank ice apple tea. hee. chat and chat. then met up with jo and sit at one of the bench in BUS school and slack there throughout the whole evening. saw daniel and he joined us to slack. 3 of us joke around like mad people. sang oldies and stuff. daniel make me and jo RUN like hell !! he saw bus 15 and told us to run. i thought he was joking as we were still at the middle of the bridge. but NO, he was not joking. he ran and we follow. i was shouting while running. people thought i mad lo. oh my god. haa. took bus 15 and went pasir ris together with him as he's going to his friend's birthday bbq. while me and jo went there for swings. lolx. lame lo. played in the playground like 3 little kids. haa. then, he went off to the bbq. left me and jo 'romantic romantic'. haa. went to buy coconut and share. hee. chatted for awhile and went back home. that's all for today. nitex.
Life is like a coin, you can spend it anyway you want but you can only spend it once. Don't pray for an easy life. Pray to be a strong person.
1:01 AM
Monday, July 17, 2006
wake up 7.15am this morning and went to school for accounting lecture. was kinda late for 15 minuntes. but when i reached the LT and got myself settled down, the lecturer haven't even started on the new topic. he was revising the previous topic. was daydreaming throughout the whole 2 hour lecture. not in the mood of listening so i went to my daydream land. went IT free access lab and do my IISO assignment, swimlane. thought jo was having break at 12pm which she also told me that, i went to one stop to wait for her. reached one stop but didn't see her but i saw many people queueing up for tanya's concert tickets. so i queued up and got 2 tickets. (for me and jo because 2 tickets to each matric card) waited for her and then realised that her lesson finished at 1pm. so i went to silicon lab with my classmates to do my assignment. meet jo 1pm at one stop. then we went to mensa to eat. i ate 'kuay zhap' and drank lemon tea. went for a mediation talk. sign up for the mediation training with some of my classmates. it sounds interesting. attend IISO lecture and again, daydream. studied CMSY during IISO lecture. weird huh. haa. let mr ang see my swimlane diagram and he said my work looks quite ok. *phew* felt relieved after hearing his words. went CMSY lab and finished doing the lab worksheet very early. this is because the worksheet was quite easy. meet jo and josca and then we went to look for biskot. crap there for some time and we went to TM. bought cup cup tea and went for a walk in TM. then, back home. nothing much today. nitex diary.
Many people say, "Don't ever stay with a guy who makes you cry cause the one who is, won't make you cry". But I've learned that if "one night the moon asked me. If he makes you cry so much why don't you leave him? I would answer... Moon, could you ever leave your sky?"
10:10 PM
Wake up at 1pm in the afternoon. Intend to wake up early in the morning to do assignment but I overslept. Ate beehoon (my standard Sunday ‘breakfast’) and watch TV. Thought today would go sim lim square with bro but in the end the trip was cancelled. So I slack until 5 plus and started to do my assignment. Can’t get to use com, so tomorrow go school then type out. Watched ‘ba li dao de ri zi’. the love story in this show really damn confusing. I’m scratching my head when watching this. Actually there’s nothing much about today. Nitex diary. Ohyasuminasai.
Sitting at the balcony looking at the sky and moon. Was thinking and wondering a lot of things. I envy other people’s family. They get to celebrate birthday together but not mine. People get things that they want easily but not me. I have to put in twice the effort to get the things I want. Why is it so different? I don’t understand. I always only have the ‘envy people’ part.
Ever heard of ‘life is not easy’? It’s true and I agree. But I will overcome all those obstacles that are blocking me from continuing my journey. I’m considered fortunate compared to those less fortunate people. I shall not be greedy. I’m gonna cherish every time I breathe, every step I walk, every word I said. I’m gonna cherish everything that is around me. My family members, friends and everything that I had. People are just like bus stop. When bus came, some people alight from the bus and stand at the bus stop whereas some people leave the bus stop and board the bus. In one’s life, people come and go easily. But every single people who came into my life and go, I will always remember them because they came once and leave their foot prints behind.
It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like that someone and a day to love that someone. But it takes a lifetime to forget that someone.
2:00 AM
Saturday, July 15, 2006
wake up at 8.15am this morning because i meet jo 10am in school. reached school around 9plus. was rather early than i used to be. because i used to be later than jo. hee. went to BUS park and bought pancake and soyabean. when i reached the table which we are sitting, i spilled the soyabean drink and accidently dirtied jo's bag. felt so guilty. after that, both of us went for our lesson. finished lesson at around 12 plus. stayed back in class for awhile to wait for our care person to come and make some announcements. then, glen was asking those girls whether they are joining for the movie or not, he kept saying me pangseh them. especially glen and sunny. oh my god. i've been hearing 'pang seh' these 2 words for 2 continuous days. damn pek chek! please. go and check around what is pang seh. if i promise to go for the outing but i said i can't make it, that is considered as pang seh. but the problem is, i didn't promise them at all. somemore they were so last minute. i have already meet my friends. i didn't argue much with them and i went off with a pissed off mind. get to cool down when i was on the way to find biskot. went there and can't stop whining. oh my god. haiz. ate tibits while waiting for jo to come and meet us. she ended her lab early and when she reached, i start to complain to her again. lolx. i sound naggy. haa. but i couldn't help it !! while waiting for biskot to knock off, me and jo chat alot of things about my classmates and life. then, the 3 of us board bus to bugis and biskot bought alot of things. haa. it's his first time to spend so much in a single day. he was also shocked. haa. went kinokuniya and we did found the books '1 litre of tears' but we couldn't buy it because it is in japanese. i didn't get the chance to stay in kinokuniya for long because both jo and biskot's stomach were grumbling. *so sad* so we went to eat japanese food. i ate 'katsu curry rice'. while we were eating, we encounter small 'xiaoqiang'. so DISGUSTING !! oh my god. i hate xiaoqiang the most!! i shall not describe in details on how we met it and how it came to an end. (scary) *phew* after eating, we went for a walk. we happened to pass by G2000 and biskot insisted to go in to take a look at those discounted items. before going off, my leg was being cut by some plastic pieces. *unlucky* went over to jo's hse to stay overnight. accompanied her brother to the prata shop and we bought tehbing (our favorite). haa. after that, we walked back to her hse. jo and her brother were walking infront and i'm walking behind them. i was rubbing my eyes because my eyes are itchy. suddenly i BUMPED onto a lamp post !! oh my god. the 3 of us were laughing uncontrollable. i laugh until i squad on the floor and then sat on the floor. jo and her brother were laughing at me throughtout the journey back to her hse. basket. for the 18 years in my life, this is the first i bumped onto lamp post lo. basket eh. [not because i didn't see the lamp post. is just that i'm rubbing my eyes lo!!] today is my very unlucky day!! been clumsy for the whole day. hmm. but if my clumsiness can make people around me to laugh heartily, i DON"T MIND !! heh heh. hee. =P hmm. watched '1 litre of tears' and cried non-stopped. (my eyes are swollen lo.) really MUST watch this show. damn touching, that's what i can say. okay la. gonna stop here. today's entry very long eh. haa. nitex diary.
Some of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go. The mind deceives what the heart feels. My mind tells me to give up, but my heart won't let me. Life is really fragile. It would breaks anytime just as a glass that is dropped on the floor. shame on myself for thinking those unimportant things compared to those people who were ill and sicked. all they wished is to continue living alive. living everyday to the fullest. i really admire AYA's character and fighting spirit.
5:00 AM
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
wake up at 8plus in the morning. went to school for iiso lab. get to know that i have to redo my swimlane because i get the wrong idea of the assignment. *haiz* met alvin in school and take card from him. waited for all the family members to assemble at 'one stop service centre' and then went for lunch. ate hokkien mee and drank ice peach tea. went for commskills lesson at 2pm, cmsy lecture at 4pm and iiso lecture at 5pm. nothing much for today. (*_*)
It is a mystery why we fall in love. It is a mystery how it happens. It is a mystery when it comes. It is a mystery why some love grows and it is a mystery why some love fails.
You can close your eyes to things you don't want to see, but you can't close your heart to things you don't want to feel.
9:40 PM
Saturday, July 08, 2006
07/07/06 [fri] wake up at 7.40am in the morning. overslept by 10 mins because jo din call to wake me up. basket. lolx. jk. hmm. suppose to meet her 9am outside library de but i was late for 15 mins. *sorry* went to library to do my e-forum thingy. after that we went to the cafe next to the bookshop. we order a cheesecake and chocolate truffle and 2 sparkling soda drinks. after that, we went for our lesson separately. do accounts accounts and accounts. (because i'm having accounting tutorial) lolx. went abit crazy during the tutorial. sharon and jiaxin can tahan me. lolx. after tutorial, meet ah boon and don for lunch. on the way to design canteen, ah boon saw his friend so he joined us for lunch too. din really talk much with them. after that, ah boon and don walk me to the IT sch LT 9 for my cmsy extra lecture. after lecture, i accompany sharon to design sch to dabao food for her parents. then i walk her to bridge there. then after that, jo called me. she had finished her lesson. we sat outside the library and felt very very boring because we had nothing to do while waiting for the results of the election. so i suggested that we go TM for a walk. while at TM, jo was pissed off by some people concerning the dinner gathering. i was having a little bit of moodswing too. went to buy cup cup tea and went back to sch. waited for gaode at mushroom and went to student lounge. waited for biskot to come and we went in to listen to the results. congrats to alvin and daniel. both of them are elected to be president. just that alvin is SU de president and daniel is BSC de president. after the results, again me and jo have to wait for all of them. whole day waiting, got abit pek chek. den ask them whether joining for dinner not, all not confirm. din confirmed with us that he's joining us for dinner. but in the end, he and daniel join BSC celebration. -_-" take bus to chomp chomp with jo, biskot, gaode and soon poh. again, reach le serangoon have to wait for ryan. WHOLE day waiting. haiz. alvin called me and say he reached chomp chomp le but we are still waiting for ryan. reached chomp chomp le but alvin gonna leave soon as he's attending a funeral. no chance to ask him treat me and jo stingray. basket. ate with the rest of the people. ryan they all order 'zu zu'. i didn't eat before so i gave it a try. it's nice but spicy. AND, it required alot of sucking skills. lolx. i'm not good at it as the flesh didn't come out and i have to use a toothpick to poke the flesh out. lolx. damn funny. having lots of fun chit chatting and eating. hee. took bus 136 home with denise. have a cold water bath and feel cooling. watched tv for repeat show. unable to use com as bro is at home. *sianx* sleep at 3plus in the morning. -that's all for today.
The talent for being happy is appreciating and liking what you have, instead of what you don't have. - Woody Allen Appreciating your life right now is as important as going for your goals.
Happiness is a butterfly always just beyond our grasp, but if you sit quietly, it may come to rest upon you. - Anonymous. Happiness flies on gentle wings and often lands on quiet things.
6:54 PM
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Siyun
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