every beat of my heart

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

wake up late this morning. suppose to go out of house at 9am because i meet kok and sharon for jogging. BUT i wake up at 9am. oops. reached school and walk over to bedok reservoir. ran non-stop for half of the reservoir. *phew* tired sia. then the other half of the distance we walked back to the starting point. (should have burned quite an amount of calories ba) *hope so* went for CMSY Q&A. but i ended up chit chatting with kok they all. haiyo. went IT canteen and eat rice from the nasi padang stall and drank ice lemon tea. went to photocopy notes for tk they all and take bus to suntec. from suntec take bus 70 back to serangoon and take bus 156 to sengkang. slept on the bus as i'm really tired. reached home and found out that i did not bring my door key as i only bring my gate key. *blur* called mummy and went hougang mall to find her. ate dinner and went back home. was playing with my cousin throughout the journey. she's cute but NAUGHTY.. haa. reached home and ate durian and kiwi. hee. then, tk suddenly called me and asked me whether wanna play mahjong not. i rejected 2 times but he say have to give him and kok face. so i went over. played mahjong and slack at his house. later i'm going back home to sleep first before i wake up to study. jialat ar me. DAMN slack and lazy. keep thinking of having fun instead of study. haiz. really cannot lo. MUST START STUDY le !! GO GO JIAYOU. GANBATTE !! =)

hmm. gonna do some soul-searching. i know i got alot of weaknesses but i will try to learn and change. sorry to those who suffer because of my weaknesses. SORRY.

A little thought for others, makes all the difference.

Begin doing what you want to do now. We are not living in eternity. We have only this moment, sparkling like a star in our hand -- and melting like a snowflake.

Life is not always what one wants it to be, but to make the best of it, as it is, is the only way of being happy.

Be silly. Be honest. Be kind.

5:43 AM

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

the time now is 6.30am in the morning. surprised that i woke up so early? no no. actually is i didn't sleep for the whole night. hai~ was rushing our iiso model at tk hse. intend to slp as we had finish our project but i scare i can't wake up so i decided not to sleep. nothing to write about.

hmm. btw, i wanna say that i've got a fantastic and fun class which is the BIT 1E01. all my classmates rawks to the core man. although sometimes the guys will make me angry, but overall, i still love them. lolx. hee. everytime when i'm with them, i would laugh non-stop. i really don't wish to get separated with them in the year 2. haiz. anyway, friends,things and feelings come and go easily. i can understand. everybody will leave their foot prints with me in my heart. =)

all the while i've been realising that life are very fragile. you won't know what will happen tomorrow. therefore, cherish and treasure the PRESENT. do not look back upon the past as it had already been a past, neither do you expect alot from the future as you might not know what will happen. the only thing we can do is to stay in the present. sometimes things do not go the way we expect and we just have to accept it because this is also part of your life. i'm trying to learn new things now. when a problem arise, first of all we have to analyse the problem. then, we gonna face the problem instead of hiding like a coward (tortise. only know how to hide in it's shell). choosing to hide, the problem will only disappear temporily but not forever. next, we gonna think of sloutions to solve the problem. if people follow these 3 steps, they wouldn't have a problem. =)

what's important for me now is to achieve my GOALS and nothing else.

Don't be sad because it's over, but be happy because it happened.
Be glad of life because it gives you the chance to love, to work, to play, and to look up at the stars.
Life is a progress, and not a station.

7:09 AM

Sunday, August 13, 2006

went to watch fireworks on friday and saturday. the fireworks on friday is the most beautiful one. BUT france's fireworks on saturday were not bad too. reached esplanade around 6 plus with yokie, kok, tk and stephen. met jo and her friends. waited for 2 hours on the bridge for the fireworks. but it was worth it. the last part of the fireworks damn nice. get very touched sia. =)

sunday
went stephen's hse to do iiso project. this 2 days, we only manage to do the building and department structure of the model. but we haven't complete our department process. can say that we haven't even start the process. haiz. slack slack slack and slack. haiz. wanna go jogging but suddenly mood swing, so cancel the thought. oh my god. what am i thinking now? i don'n understand eh. where has my 'determination' gone? i'm so lazy to do anything. haiz. i must find back my 'determination' in order to continue to strive for my GOALS. argh.

All you have to do is smile and no one ever knows what you are thinking.

I always knew that i'll look back at my tears and laugh, but i never thought that i'll look back at my laughter and cry.

7:52 PM

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

fireworks on 8th of Aug by Singapore team.

slept early ytd. wake up at 8.20am and went school for tutorial. went kfc situated opposite school for lunch with quite a number of classmates. (lazy to name out) haa. saw biskot at kfc with his collegues. ate 2piece chicken meal and crap alot with shone and sharon they all. whole kfc are filled with our laughter. lolx. went back to school and studied abit for commskills summative test. i can't finish the whole paper lo. haiz. nvm. it's finally over and i felt relieved. lend my battery to eugene coz his battery is flat. anyway no people will message or call me what. so help him lo. met jo, yokie and josca and we went to bedok to have dinner. me and yokie didn't eat because we are not hungry. after dinner, me, jo and yokie straight away went down to esplanade for fireworks. it's only 7 plus 8 and esplanade already full of people. squeeze here and there. finally we stopped in the middle of the bridge and the view are nice. waited there and finally it's 9pm. the fireworks started and i must say that it was really very nice. it had the 'singapore feel'. i like the orange fireworks that looks like glitter. i just love it. how i wish i could ... hmm. then went over to marina square for a walk as the bus stop was very crowded. met gaode and the 4 of us crap around as much as we can. saw the moon and ... then me, jo and gaode take bus 70 home. was listening to his story (again) on the way home. haa. he huh. always very complicated de lo. donno how to say. haa. hmm. nothing much. nitex.

Time heal all wounds. But even if the wound has heal, there would always be a scar or it would still hurts when u touch it.

every corner, anywhere, we could see couples. why do human beings need companion? is it because there's a must or because we need it? or is it human beings are lonely and they need a companion? human beings are selfish mammals. do you agree? they only think of what is best for ownself and does not give a damn about others on whether they will hurt others or not. when something had gone wrong, they will always push the blame to other and not ownself. is all these things that made up human beings? *wonder*

What we call the secret of happiness is no more a secret than our willingness to choose life. - Leo Buscaglia.
Your life is precious. Choose to live it well. '

If there were nothing wrong in the world, there wouldn't be anything for us to do. - George Bernard Shaw.
Find something that could be done better. Then get busy doing it.

2:11 AM

Sunday, August 06, 2006

hmm. wake up at 9.20am and went gym with jo. exercise for around 1 hour. sweat alot. damn shiok. =P cut my hair today. (quite short eh.) haa. but nevermind. new image, new me. actually quite miss my long hair BUT hair will grow de ma. so nevermind. =) decide to make more improvements about myself. gonna be happy every single moment of my life and live my life to the fullest. gonna do lots of meaningful work and enjoy myself in the joy of fun. i rather spend most of my time to be happy than most of my time sad. correct? hee. that's a promise and i shall not break my promise. GO GO JIAYOU. GANBATTE !! =) i'm working hard towards my own goals. =P

Life at any time can become difficult: life at any time can become easy. It all depends upon how one adjusts oneself to life. - Morarji Desai
It takes wisdom to smile at the storm.

I find that it is not the circumstances in which we are placed, but the spirit in which we face them, that constitutes our comfort. - Elizabeth King
Without down there can be no up. Without dark, no light. Without challenge, no reward. Without sadness from time to time, no joyful sense of being.

4:46 PM

Saturday, August 05, 2006

i just find that i should shut up my mouth and only mind my own business. tomorrow then update today's class outing entry.

A sad thing about life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you only to find out in the end that. It was never bound to be and you just have to let go.

1:14 AM

Thursday, August 03, 2006

early in the morning, wake up with a sleepy mind. meet econ group members 10am outside sch library. thought i was going to be late, so i msg one of my member that i'll be late. but in the end i'm the first to reach. haa. reached sch around 10.15 and she came in awhile's time. went silicon to do our project. it's 10.30am already and the other member haven reach yet. so we called her and guess what happen? she JUST wake up. oh my god. then left me and N doing the project all alone. she finally reached silicon at 12 plus. AND she didn't do her part of work. oh my god. can you imagine how irresponsible she is? she's late for 2 hours plus, i already tolerate le. but she didn't do her part eh. oh please. i don't even have the time to go lunch with jo. have to settle my lunch in the silicon lab eating sandwiches. as if the project only got 2 members, me and N. basket eh. damn angry eh. somemore yesterday when we are searching for some information in the library, she keep thinking of EAT. at there keep asking "you not going for lunch mehx?" then i was splitting the job for each person, she got the 'unemployment' and 'interest rate'. then she at there complain don't know how to do. oh please. and the information she research on 'unemployment', but it's not relevant lo. then in the end, i do all the part that she need to do. i also don't know how to do 'interest rate' because i wasn't paying attention during lecture. but in the end i also figure it out what. it's not difficult if you put in effort to go and read the lecture notes and understand it. i DID that myself so why can't you? haiz. i swear that i won't group with her again. no next time already. 1 time is enough.

home
today, i ate alot during dinner. 1 and a half bowl of rice, drank 1 and a half bowl of soup. ate pineapple and going to eat chocolate later. haa. so FULL~ getting fatter and fatter. oops. gonna go gym le la. haa. nothing much. nitex.

Ask me how many times my heart has been broken and I will tell you to look in the sky and count the stars.

10:08 PM

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

today

-sad day.
-drop tears.
-very sad.
-no mood to talk.
-feel like eating alot of tibits NOW.
-feel like shouting out loud NOW.
-wanna vent out but cannot.
-feel like eating chocolates NOW.
-feel like throwing everything aside but i can't.
-cried.
-angry about myself.
-just a fool.
='(

Words and hearts should be handled with care, for words when spoken and hearts when broken are the hardest things to repair.

8:56 PM